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A Heartbreaking Love Story

Good aftie to all ~

Nothing really to blog about. It's just that.. I can't take the episode I watched last night off my mind. The show is entitled "Maalaala Mo Kaya" and it's in Tagalog.

The main cast: a playboy and a girl.. I guy is Geoff Eigenman and the girl is Maja Salvador.

It's about a guy changed. Geoff changed because of Maja.. she taught him how to value life. They love each other so much.. Maja even introduced Geoff to her parents. Geoff still doesn't have a job and he's currently looking for one. He's so ashamed of his self and it made him run away and forget reality-- for even just a few days.

So there, he ran away from home. His feet took him to a bar and there he met another girl who is Desire Del Valle. They've been together for 3 days and during those 3 days, they got to know each other well.. very well. They even got along with each other to the point that they did something which shouldn't have been done.

After 3 days, Geoff finally went home. Desire and him were on a tricycle. He didn't know that Maja was up there in the 2nd floor of his house with his mother, waiting for him. Maja saw him get of the tricycle. She also saw Geoff kiss Desire and told the tricycle driver to take care of Desire... (ouch!!~) Maja saw all of it and she was already in the verge of crying.. I pity her so much.. Maja then hugged Geoff's mother.. when she turned her back, Geoff was there.

Maja just silently went past him and left silently. Geoff was scolder by her own mother.. then after that, he went out and catched up to Maja and told her to please forgive him.. that he was so ashamed of himself that he left.. He even proposed to her.. asked her to marry him.. Maja's answer was "yes"... But days after, Geoff disappeared again with Desire.. He promised himself that he would just spend A DAY with Desire but 1 day transformed into 3 days.. They did something that shouldn't have been done again.

The day before their very wedding, Geoff visited Desire to say goodbye.. in a peaceful way. He wanted to part ways with her but she wouldn't let him.. She threatened to kill herself if Geoff leaves her... Geoff is then left with no choice. They left Manila that very day. He accompanied Desire to her home in Iligan.. but when they arrived there, Geoff was unable to find his wallet in his bag. It's already dark and he needed to go home to Maja in Manila for their wedding tomorrow. He then learns that Desire hid his wallet so he won't be able to go home in Manila... sad :(

Yesterday came. The Wedding Day came.. Maja's waiting in the bridal car for Geoff to show up.. but he was nowhere to be found. The wedding was a mess..

Tomorrow came. Geoff and Desire were on the dinner table but Geoff had no appetite. He walked out of the dining room and Desire followed him.. holding a knife in her hand. She threatened to kill Geoff but Geoff said "kill me now if you wish.. you already ruined my life..".. Desire then seemed to wake herself up .. he then let go of Geoff and let him go back to Manila...

Maja saw Geoff sitting in their backyard.. I don't know how he got in. They talked... a lot. They decided to break up and give each other time and space.. Maja said: "I will wait for you forever..." They hugged each other.. and that's the end.. so sad right? :(

I was thinking.. what if Dayo did those to me? Would I be able to handle it? I cried with the thought.. I can't afford to lose him.. I'll die... I just can't... :( I'm glad that he's so faithful to me.. I just.. couldn't ask for more anymore!

Haiiz...

Labels: ache, disaster, heartache, heartbreak, maalaala mo kaya, sad, tragedy

11:14 AM | 11/16/08 | 0 Comment

Am So Down...

Haiiz.. I feel so down. He's been here since yesterday but he didn't even bother to spare some time with me. Like stroll down.. meet-up.. or simply just to see me. Argh, I feel so sad and lonely... I really wanted to see him and ate Maricel.. but I'm too shy to tell him. I don't know why...

I want to cry but I'm preventing myself from doing so. Why? 'Cos I feel terrible when crying. I hate crying! I don't want to be depressed anymore like what I did before. I wanted to kill myself the last time I cried.. Haha! Silly I know, but it's all in the past.

I really hate him.. or should I say, nagtatampo na ako sa kanya. All he does is stroll down with B-yong and Belen! Didn't he ever think about me wanting to see him? I want to grab the chance as long as he's here in Manila.. but damn it. He doesn't even care.

He doesn't even bother to utter the words "could you please come here?" or "can I go there?".
Haiii.. so insensitive... :(

I know I'm pessimistic but I can't help it.. what can I do.. Haiz. Come what may!

Labels: cry, down, lonely, sad, tampo

5:42 PM | 10/27/08 | 0 Comment

Depression ... My Current Enemy

I can't take it anymore... dang, this depression is killing me! I feel so alone.. with no one to talk to.. I can't help but cry.. cry.. and cry.. I didn't get very plenty of sleep last night. My eyes were so red and sore from crying. My head ached like hell for several hours, leaving me awake all day, all night...

It's all his fault! He exchanged his time for me in just playing cards! He and his friends played Pusoy and Tong-It almost all day. Their game started 10am 'til 8:30pm! Non-stop what the heck. I was so sad and lonely the whole day. The clock stroked 6pm. I was freakin' missin' him 'cos we didn't get the chance to talk properly because of the card games. I mustered all the courage I can gather just to contact him, but to no avail, his phone was turned off. I was nervous and not feeling well all of a sudden. I wondered and wondered about why his phone was off.

"Could there be no signal bars?", "Could it be that he's playing basketball?", "Could it be that he's watching the championship?", "Could it be that something bad has happened to him?". Questions like those continued to linger in my mind for more than 3 hours. I even forgot to eat dinner...

I then suddenly thought of one thing-- to load up regular load so that I can call Ate Marissa's cellphone. I was successful. She answered the phone. I asked about Dayo's whereabouts but to no avail again, 'cos they don't know where he is. Instead, she told me several places, possibilities of Dayo's whereabouts. After we talked, I said "Sige salamat ate ha?" (thank you).
"Please tell him to call me up immediately when he gets home." She said "ok, you're welcome Yu." ...

So there, I waited again. I waited for one and a half hour. When the clock stroke 8:30pm, I tried contacting him again. His phone rang. I then figured out that he's still playing cards with his friends and cousins. He told me, "Ayaw kasi nila mag-ayawan eh. Pauwi na rin ako. Wait lang ha?" (I'll be coming home soon. Wait for me, okay?). I don't know why but all of a sudden, I was in the verge of crying-- again. I was so hurt.. he exchanged his time for his girlfriend with the cards. Dang..

After about 6 minutes, he texted me, "Call now". I didn't call him up immediately upon reading that text message. I only called him up after 15 minutes. So there, we talked. I told him how I feel.. I did not lie about my feelings. He just remained silent.. "I know it's my fault.."

I felt the urge to break up with him. I did, but deep inside my heart I know.. that I didn't mean it. It was obvious that he didn't want to let me go. But I insisted. He said, "I'm giving you time to think about your decision 'til tomorrow". I took a short nap.. for 30 minutes, I think. I couldn't resist him! What the heck.. I couldn't sleep anymore the moment I woke up so I called him up again. Upon answering the phone, I learned that Ate Marissa already gave birth to her baby girl. I was so shocked! I'm happy for her but at the same time, I'm sad.. and feel envious of her.. I don't know why.. Maybe it's because I love babies and kids.. (anong connect?)

After that, I slept. Not a nap anymore, but I still couldn't sleep well 'cos my eyes were sore from crying. I felt that my whole head was aching. I didn't sleep the whole night.. I was so worried of Dayo but I don't know why..

Morning came, we talked again. I hate him, yes but I love him.. We argued again. I cried straight for more than an hour, thinking about various things.. things that are real and hurts. Fortunately, I didn't get crazy.. I was almost suicidal. I kept telling myself "I want to die..." But I don't know if I should kill myself or not. He's cold to me. Why? Maybe because he thinks we're no longer in a relationship.

Til now, I'm still depressed.. waiting for his text.. I'm contacting him right now but there seems to be no signal bar.. I don't know anymore if I'm still doing the right thing.. I'm a muffin--- a muffin that's in love with him..

Labels: depressed, depression, lonely, sad, suicidal, suicide, tear

10:23 AM | 9/29/08 | 0 Comment